I fought. I fought hard.

I did the things that I thought I'll never dare to do.

I took the risks that I had never taken before.

I put in effort. I put in all my effort.

I tried. I tried so hard.

But nothing changed the outcome. 90% of my brain told me to lower my expectations and it was just impossible. 10% was what kept me going. I believed I had a chance, no matter how small it was. I believed that if I just took a chance, I might be able to defeat reality. I believed that maybe somehow, i could change my entire world.

But it just seems like I tried too hard, all for nothing.

Afterall, it was all decided even before the race had started.

I am honestly, very disappointed, to realise, the world works like that.

I fought. I fought hard.

I did the things that I thought I'll never dare to do.

I took the risks that I had never taken before.

I put in effort. I put in all my effort.

I tried. I tried so hard.

But nothing changed the outcome. 90% of my brain told me to lower my expectations and it was just impossible. 10% was what kept me going. I believed I had a chance, no matter how small it was. I believed that if I just took a chance, I might be able to defeat reality. I believed that maybe somehow, i could change my entire world.

But it just seems like I tried too hard, all for nothing.

Afterall, it was all decided even before the race had started.

I am honestly, very disappointed, to realise, the world works like that.