Sometimes I feel like Im sacrificing too many other things just for you. But then how can I give you up; when you're probably the last thing I can ever have, last thing I can ever love. You're the last thing remaining then still ignites that rare spark of passion.
But I think I'm missing many other opportunities for your sake.
& I'm exasperated.

Sometimes I wonder why everything turned out to be as the way it is right now. Why.
Why does every single song remind me of you. okay, i think this is weird but i feel damn awesome today.
i feel like i finally changed myself :D
i mean, the past me wouldn't think twice but now, coming here, i think i found much more room to grow as in individual.
i can't believe its over just like that lol. and i doesnt mean that everything went well, i assure you evething didnt go well HAHA. seriously. it was screwed but then omg, i can't believe it did it! totally hyper and so uber proud of myself.

totally glad i didn't regret trying. now i can totally understand what they meant by not trying is like your greatest regret. and honestly i dont want to expect it because, i guess there's really better others fit for it, and yet i wanna have a TEENY WEENY confidence in myself. let's bet like a 10% chance LOL. okay anw, i mean getting it is not the my utmost, but i think...this has been a quite life-changing experience. it may not be so for all the others, but for me it definitely was! and heck, i was actually enjoying it HAHA. so much for being crazy nervous and panic attacks.
so today i'm really proud of myself AND GAVE MYSELF A KOI TREAT!!! :D met evan there too ^^

i tried my best in those (very challenging) circumstances, but heck, i think i was being totally true and true to myself, i didn't want to fake it out, cause...well, there wouldnt be any point anymore, it might have been beneficial in some sense but then oh well, lets be true to ourselves(:
gave it all i had, fought hard, played hard, had a great time!
i don't regret trying.
why, just never look back ;)


PS TOTALLY ADDICTED TO DONG YI CHAEWNAEJIA! "真是不知是否应该放弃吗?若放弃了就感到有点可惜，但不放弃，只怕会咎由自取，甚至牵累到大家。真是不知是好!"
I think I should just let nature take it's course, whatever happens will happen.
I should stop worrying and just let it go.

And start worrying about my screwed revision for block tests. You have no idea how fucked up I am.
Note: I am not one that let's out expletives so easily. Technically after today, I'll only be free after next tuesday, with bio econs completely untouched. BIO. *sarcastic laugh* HAH. ECONS *sarcastic laugh again* HAH. And not to mention eom and gp. HAH. I'm fucked up. No doubt, jc life is on heck of a stress ): and then they say if you're already stressed now, next year... T.T Anyway, I've learnt that you'll be able to adapt to anything when the time comes. Like how in primary sch you used to think I'll just die in secondary sch, and like now, you survived, *applause* and how you'll be thinking I'm gonna be dead in jc, I'll never get used to the lecture system, I'll never be able to cope with cca till late at night, I'll never ace PW, PW sucks like crap...but now, you're here. Whether you're just floating thru happily or crawling trying hard to hang on (LOL)...well we r all here now. And we can't go back. And life is just gonna get much much much harder form here on. What to do.
We have no choice but to hang on, stay strong. "you never know how strong you can be until you have no choice but to be strong". Well, so many choices I made, the many paths I decided to take, I wanted it as a form of challenge, I didn't want to stay in comfort zone. I thought I needed to up my game. But no doubt its tough, it's killing me...like how everyone is so-damn-freaking genius here, I seriously don't get how a can't see someone that isnt outstanding anyway here, well, of course I'm dying. But I think i won't be regretting this anytime soon, even if time rewinded I'll still choose to come here. Regretting is not a choice anyway.

And then of course, life sucks. But then I've learnt to just be myself, and not like conform to whatever others think is "right" or "good". Like heck, that's your opinion of me and I honestly don't give a damn. these few days I mean...I've really realized that you should just do whatever you love, regardless of what the whole world thinks of you. Life is so short, why stop yourself from doing stuff that youre passionate about just because of all noise around you? Why make life unenjoyable and unpleasant just for the sake of others?
'But all this noise will always be there in the world. You have a sense of what you want to do and you just do it because if you listen to the world, your work will never be done.'

Life's tough.
Nobody said it was going to be easy anyway.

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Sometimes I feel like Im sacrificing too many other things just for you. But then how can I give you up; when you're probably the last thing I can ever have, last thing I can ever love. You're the last thing remaining then still ignites that rare spark of passion.
But I think I'm missing many other opportunities for your sake.
& I'm exasperated.

Sometimes I wonder why everything turned out to be as the way it is right now. Why.
Why does every single song remind me of you. okay, i think this is weird but i feel damn awesome today.
i feel like i finally changed myself :D
i mean, the past me wouldn't think twice but now, coming here, i think i found much more room to grow as in individual.
i can't believe its over just like that lol. and i doesnt mean that everything went well, i assure you evething didnt go well HAHA. seriously. it was screwed but then omg, i can't believe it did it! totally hyper and so uber proud of myself.

totally glad i didn't regret trying. now i can totally understand what they meant by not trying is like your greatest regret. and honestly i dont want to expect it because, i guess there's really better others fit for it, and yet i wanna have a TEENY WEENY confidence in myself. let's bet like a 10% chance LOL. okay anw, i mean getting it is not the my utmost, but i think...this has been a quite life-changing experience. it may not be so for all the others, but for me it definitely was! and heck, i was actually enjoying it HAHA. so much for being crazy nervous and panic attacks.
so today i'm really proud of myself AND GAVE MYSELF A KOI TREAT!!! :D met evan there too ^^

i tried my best in those (very challenging) circumstances, but heck, i think i was being totally true and true to myself, i didn't want to fake it out, cause...well, there wouldnt be any point anymore, it might have been beneficial in some sense but then oh well, lets be true to ourselves(:
gave it all i had, fought hard, played hard, had a great time!
i don't regret trying.
why, just never look back ;)


PS TOTALLY ADDICTED TO DONG YI CHAEWNAEJIA! "真是不知是否应该放弃吗?若放弃了就感到有点可惜，但不放弃，只怕会咎由自取，甚至牵累到大家。真是不知是好!"
I think I should just let nature take it's course, whatever happens will happen.
I should stop worrying and just let it go.

And start worrying about my screwed revision for block tests. You have no idea how fucked up I am.
Note: I am not one that let's out expletives so easily. Technically after today, I'll only be free after next tuesday, with bio econs completely untouched. BIO. *sarcastic laugh* HAH. ECONS *sarcastic laugh again* HAH. And not to mention eom and gp. HAH. I'm fucked up. No doubt, jc life is on heck of a stress ): and then they say if you're already stressed now, next year... T.T Anyway, I've learnt that you'll be able to adapt to anything when the time comes. Like how in primary sch you used to think I'll just die in secondary sch, and like now, you survived, *applause* and how you'll be thinking I'm gonna be dead in jc, I'll never get used to the lecture system, I'll never be able to cope with cca till late at night, I'll never ace PW, PW sucks like crap...but now, you're here. Whether you're just floating thru happily or crawling trying hard to hang on (LOL)...well we r all here now. And we can't go back. And life is just gonna get much much much harder form here on. What to do.
We have no choice but to hang on, stay strong. "you never know how strong you can be until you have no choice but to be strong". Well, so many choices I made, the many paths I decided to take, I wanted it as a form of challenge, I didn't want to stay in comfort zone. I thought I needed to up my game. But no doubt its tough, it's killing me...like how everyone is so-damn-freaking genius here, I seriously don't get how a can't see someone that isnt outstanding anyway here, well, of course I'm dying. But I think i won't be regretting this anytime soon, even if time rewinded I'll still choose to come here. Regretting is not a choice anyway.

And then of course, life sucks. But then I've learnt to just be myself, and not like conform to whatever others think is "right" or "good". Like heck, that's your opinion of me and I honestly don't give a damn. these few days I mean...I've really realized that you should just do whatever you love, regardless of what the whole world thinks of you. Life is so short, why stop yourself from doing stuff that youre passionate about just because of all noise around you? Why make life unenjoyable and unpleasant just for the sake of others?
'But all this noise will always be there in the world. You have a sense of what you want to do and you just do it because if you listen to the world, your work will never be done.'

Life's tough.
Nobody said it was going to be easy anyway.

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