Friday, April 22, 2011 @ 10:38 PM
Too tired; too overwhelmed.
It's like, I'm so drained, to the max. That I don't even have the energy to cry anymore.This is one heck of a exhausting journey.
I'm really very very tired. How many nights have I just came back and immediately went to sleep. How many days that I totally not done any homework. And thanks to all this slacking and severe unproductiveness, I'm lagging like there's no end. And I'm not typing this in the complaining and whiny tone, its more like a serious and pessimistic one. I'm overwhelmed now, finally I actually realize, how much I suck. How stupid I am. How passive I had been. How complacent I had been.
And I was nowhere near this screwed last year.
I don't know if it's like my entire stretch and stamina dropped or what, but sometimes I'm really very easily drained and then I cannot freaking complete anything. I feel horrible. If this is what life is gonna be the next years, ...I actually can't think of anything to say. I don't even want to think about it.
I can't even have the energy to cry; how I wasted the entire of today again.
And I'm really too tired. Too tired to keep on fighting. Too tired to prevent being overwhelmed. Too tired trying so hard to stay afloat. Too tired to even care anymore.
Let the worn-out me sulk and bawl and howl and cry in one dark corner, where no one cares and even knows.
